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the devil wants to touch you
i had a bad dream last night. another one! that makes it, two i think in the last two weeks. these bad dreams usually involve her and i sitting at a table. i think it’s a high school lunch table. there are other people around. i sit there so frustrated and angry and upset, begging and pleading (nothing specific that i can remember), while she looks back at me smiling and laughing at me. i am slamming my hands on the table wanting to just go insane, and she just smiles and laughs and taunts.
on the bright side, i have almost completely forgotten what her voice sounds like.
i don’t really feel comfortable saying this, but i am actually proud of myself. as in, proud of my current state. i am fucking ashamed of a lot of my past decisions and really really wish i could go back in time and SHAKE MYSELF the day before thanksgiving 2007.
i have a new album coming out hopefully this year called misery swimmingpool. probably around 10 tracks as usual, maybe more this time. when it is finished, i am going to put the mp3s up for free download. i am also going to be selling a physical copy which will include handmade packaging, 4x6 photographs, and a personal letter for $5, payable through paypal and mailed by myself to your house.
this will be my 4th album. my others can be found here and here.
